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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Friday, 20 April 1906
A∴I∴ [Augoeides Invocation] with A. [Elaine Simpson] in her temple. Aiwass invoked appears, of brilliant blue as when she saw him as guardian of my sleep. He has followed me ever, wishing me to follow his cult. When A. took wand, he grows brilliant and breaks up into a formless light: yet she feels him as an enemy. He seems entangles in a mesh of light and to be trying to escape. I warn him that if he goes away he cannot return. (A. in herself is hostile) "Return to Egypt, with different surroundings. (This misheard: he said same.) There I will give thee signs. Go with the S[carlet] W[oman] this is essential: thus you shall get real power, that of God, the only one worth having. Illumination shall come by means of power, pari passai. Live in Egypt as you did before. Do not do a G[reat] R[etirement]. Go at once to Egypt: money troubles will be settled more easily than you think now. I will give you no guarantee of my truth." he here turned blue-black. "I am loath to part from you. Do not take A. I do not like the relations between you; break them off! If not, you must follow other Gods. Yet I would wish you to love physically, to make perfect the circle of your union. A. will not do so, therefore she is useless. If she did, she would become useful. You have erred in showing her the true relation between you on spiritual planes. Having burst that, she will remain by her sense of power over you [?] She is spiritually stronger than you. You should have dominated her by your superior strength on other planes. She will give you much trouble though eventually she may become a great aid. But your shorter path lies by Egypt and S.W. though she is not spiritually your equal. S.W. has become your enemy; but you having conquered she is bound to aid you as you will. She has been your enemy and that of A. but you returned her hatred hence her seeming power over you in the present. (Q[uer]y this hearing.) I will give you a sign when alone and away from present medium. You must recognize the sign by your own initiation. Do not part from S.W. Use her. (Here S.W. appears with an evil look. She glitters like a jewelled serpent. Strange bands of light scintillate between her and Aiwass. A. now takes wand again: still feels animity on spiritual planes. Aiwass banished; S.W. has disappeared. A. tries to speak to A∴. He wants G. Retirement: does not mind whether S.W. is with me or not; but I should use brahmacharya (? if with her, or anyhow) I shall be guided as things turn up, as to the truth or falsehood of Aiwass, who is not to be altogether distrusted (I think the opposition is Aiwass' limitation as a servant). A∴ will give us a sign: A's freedom. (I reply that is this comes about in a miraculous manner, well and good.) Close.
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